Wednesday, November 5, 2014

Lonely and Empty, Indirectly Proportional

Lonely.

It's always been to loneliness, for what I faced.

Pernah ngga sih, lo ngerasa ada saat dimana lo ngerasa empty―kosong, di dalam kesendirian.

Rasanya aneh, percampuran antara kekosongan dan kesepian. I don't know how to put those feelings in words. Rasanya seakan dunia berputar begitu lambat, dan kita dituntut untuk melaluinya dengan cepat. I don't know what I'm saying, which is really weird.



Just like that

Terkadang gue berpikir, apa cuma gue doang yang ngerasa kayak begini? Gue liat temen-temen gue, semuanya happy, sibuk dengan dunia mereka masing-masing, hangout bareng, ketawa bareng, dan mengabiskan waktu mereka dengan teman dekat.


So, this is how it feel to be lonely---black and blank.

Kamu ngga tau harus ngapain, harus bagaimana, dan kamu hanya bisa memandang kosong ke udara. Sesekali bertanya pada diri sendiri, how can I get out of this all?


Terkadang, kamu bingung. Bingung, kepada siapa harus menceritakan keluh kesah, gundah hati, dan perasaan kamu. Karena orang-orang hanya menganggap kamu itu udara. Nyata, tetapi tidak terlihat. 



Orang-orang hanya sadar akan keberadaan kamu di saat mereka membutuhkan sesuatu. Di saat seperti itu, mereka menganggap kamu penting. Dan di saat semuanya selesai, komunikasi itu pun ikut selesai. Secepat mereka datang.



When you feel lonely, you just want to be alone. With silence. You don't know what to do. Just, stand still. Sometimes, you might feel the urge to cry, but the tears can't out. Only silent sobs. And no one gives you a shoulder.


When you feel empty, you just wondering. How do you get out of this emptiness? What should you do? Why if people still not aware of your appearance? And other negative thoughts will fulfill your minds.


Sedih, memang. But I reassure you, I through this too, I feel this too many often and still. I believe, I will find someone who clicks me. Someday. There must be still a chance for me, for us, to get out of this all.


all the time

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It's just about the time that you'll find better days.